Today is Easter, and I should be at church. My boys flew home today after spending the last days with me. It was great. The three of us did a lot of fun things, saw some movies and spent a lot of time talking. It was a beautiful ending to a piss poor week.
Some of you already know some have guessed, but Melanie has decided she no longer wants to be married to me, so in the next few months, we Will Be divorcing. the only reason it is dragging out that long is so we do not have to break our lease here which ends in 3 months anyway.
I was going to write a funny, humorous blog about blaming the Internet and Stephanie Meyers and vampires in general for my divorce, but I cannot bring myself to it. A friend of mine said I was anything but cliche recently and I realized that my usual tactic of covering up my emotions with humor was not going to work.
My heart IS breaking, but I know that in time, wounds heal and I am a better person for her being in my life even as brief or ling as I count it. I DON'T know why she is leaving other than she would rather be alone she tells me, she is a loner. Gee, this would have been good to know 6 YEARS AGO!!! I guess I missed all the signs until recently.
Anyhoo, that is my big news. I guess that frees up more time for me to go to the gym and all, because my house no longer feels like a home and I do not like being there. I plan on staying in Vegas, because now is NOT the time to be looking for a job; unless you know of a place that can use a an executive management type, savvy in technology but willing to sweep floors for the right opportunity. Good with my hands too. LOL.
The next few months will allow me to get closer to myself, maybe I Will see some of the things in me others see, but probably not. I can focus on work, school and my guitar now too, so that helps.
So I have dwelt on this long enough, in a few days I'll post again. Peace out. Happy Easter to all my friends and family - remember what today stands for and remember that you too can start over. Slide.
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Sorry to hear about you and Mel. I really like her, but remember that some people are only meant to be in our lives for a specific amt of time - some forever. One of my long-time affirmations is the old but true standard: It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. Peace back to you. Love!
ReplyDeleteHey,
ReplyDeleteIt was so fun to hang out the other night! I am really glad you guys met us and then came over for fun Hildebrand style games!!
If you ever don't feel like going home you can always come over to my house!! I will let you chase 4 kids, that's a great exercise routine to boot!
Love ya,
Song
Hi Mike,
ReplyDeleteI am really sorry to hear about you and Melanie. When I read your blog it pained me greatly to know you are suffering.
I have to agree with Sedge in the fact that it is better to have loved than the other. Your in my heart and spirit and I will hope for the very best for you always, no matter what.
Hi cuz! I am sorry to hear! I haven't been through it before so I can't say I know what you are going through, but I am here if you ever need anything! Best of luck! Lot of Love!
ReplyDeleteJen
Okay, that totally sucks! Sorry man. And maybe the working out at home part might not be such a great suggestion after all, but hey - hiking is excellent. Get yourself into the Nevada rural areas as long as it's early morning and not a gazillion degrees.
ReplyDeleteI saw your boys over Easter - I totally love them! Your youngest and I had a moment with the bird.
Hang in, speaking from experience, it does get better.